When words fail me

It's better not to think, of the things that could be, might be, may be. A positive light may have been shed upon me, but right at the back comes the ever pulling sense of doubt, if this is the one, if this is what I want.   Many times it's the differences that makes something a little more special than the other, or is this a sentence of comfort to help steer me in the direction for what I may want to believe in? Take it one step at a time, who knows what the future may hold? But one thing's for certain, this ain't the moment.

unexplainable

unexplainable disappointment.
not that i can say much here,
as i said it all in the title alone.
hard to say, hard to tell, just feels so upset
feeling that this is how u felt
that nothing was what i thought it to be
the disappointment slowly, silently
engulfs the very thought of me.
i'm not clingy/un-independent,
rather to test if you really wanted me there,
to help you through the day
like the life and the hope and the reason
to find, that you would see me walk
alone along the road
no direction and no compassion
i thought you cared, but the question begs,
do you really?