Men are allowed to cheat, while women that do are a disgrace

How come it is okay for men to sleep around or cheat on their wives or girlfriends?

But when the ladies do that in return, they find their boyfriends or husband throwing a fit? Going beyond angry? Starts of by thinking what a bitch she is. Getting jealous that another man managed to get into the ladies' pants. Expects her to be angel, only meant to serve you, while the man, they can sleep around whenever they please, wherever they want to. So when they hear that their girlfriends or wives have done it, they think it outrageous, something that they totally cannot accept. And when they do it?
Oh comeon, that's fineeeee..... oh that thing? Sorry hun, it was a mistake, i promise, i won't do it again, please forgive me. Believe me, it wasn't meant to happen that way, it slipped, I'm really sorry. Yes, you guys throw this kind of bullshit.

And the ladies, we feel angry at the beginning, but believing those words, and we slowly learn to trust them once more. That's when they do it again.

And guys, they cheat and they cheat and they cheat and they sleep and they do it again and again and again. Yes, they tell themselves, its okay, we're guys, we can do it. So when the ladies decide to return that gesture, the guys, no, they can't handle it, a part of them is disgusted with their girlfriends/wives, and a another part, they can't stand to lose them. But yet, it is OKAY or ALRIGHT for the men to do it?

Why? Why the inequality? You guys have feelings you say? That ladies are bitches when they sleep around you say? Then how about you bastards? You think women have no feelings? You think they have to bow down to your every order, it is not enough that they please you, but you expect them to ALLOW others in pleasing you? Where's the fairness in that?

Mistakes can happen, and girls/ladies, they give you chances. And so you ***king take that chance and blow it into pieces again? *scoffs* and to THINK that men are supposedly greater than ladies? WHERE'S THE GREATNESS IN THAT HUH??

What if?

What do I want to talk about today???

Lately, life has been really stressful with so many things to finish up before the so called break (which actually should not even be called one as it appears to be more of a study break for our mid terms), and then there is the fact that I have not studied ANYTHING up to date. But work, SERIOUSLY, am I going to blog about WORK? That is so boring ahahah!

So what then? Oh! I'd like to tell you of a recent project, where we pasted this wall sticker to beautify the room as well as to enhance our positive energies. Not going to show you all the picture though, because on there are some words that cannot be mentioned, otherwise things would be too transparent already isn't it. Needless to say, me ("my" actually, for those who are trying to improve their english, but because I'm writing for fun, haha)  roommate is more positive than I am, and I'm really hoping that her positivity rubs off on me. But just for your visualization, it is a scene of a guy on bended knee, giving flowers to the girl, with hearts and gifts, balloons and sweets and even a sidewalk lamppost. So that is our goal! D-Day, I decided comes quite but not quite soon.

What roomie told me was true. I can't really go on with my life if I did not find out what our relationship really meant. Even if there will be broken hearts, at least I can move on and not compare thee to a summers day. haha. ok. compare you to another not so eligible bachelor just over the fact that I have seen too many good things in you such that it would be hard for me to find another one that can match you. But if I do find someone better, I would still wonder, wonder how we could have been and what would happen if we tried. And I can't move on because I will always wonder "what if"

What if I asked you instead
How would life have turned out to be?
What if I told you instead
Could we have been meant to be?

This are the types of things that I do wonder would I be able to move on if I do not know the answer. Basically, yes, with sheer force and utter determination I'd be able to move on. But that question will always be in the back of my mind, wondering whether you actually felt the same way too, but due to our fear, we missed our chances.

Chances are, (looking into positivity) you mean more to me as I mean more to you. Because lets face it. Even if you treated all girls the same, there is just something that made you feel the need to spend time with me more. So what is it? What is exactly going inside that head of yours? Are you actually listening more to your mind than to you heart?

Is it possible?

Is it possible to have liked someone for so long, but to only realize as of late that actually it is love? It's like there is a whole different meaning to this feeling. A feeling that is indescribable.
Not only are there memories of what we have gone through so far. It feels like lately you too have realized something, it made you more gentle. Don't really know if you realized it though. I also managed to realize more things.

I don't get sad so often anymore.
I can imagine so many wonderful possibilities.
You are my present and my future.
There isn't just a place in my mind that I seek comfort, but there are so many places that I go to to think of you.
Looking at you every night makes a day well spent and a tomorrow that begins.
Usually I over think and question your every move but now I rarely do that, and instead of feeling sad, I usually think of happy thoughts instead.
I still wish to hear or talk to you every time or to know what you are thinking. And for that, whenever you don't talk to me, I just think of all the gentlest things that you have done recently and caress that in my heart.

It's so hard for me to say it, to put them down in words, but I just want this to be a reminder of this memory that suddenly fills me and makes me so so so happy.