For one day only

It was great that day, knowing that I had you back, even if i meant that it was for one day only. I know that if I ever mentioned this you would deny and object to such thoughts, but you don't know the truth because you are hidden and covered by blankets of love. I also know at times you do apologize and I forgive, for times when you seem to have ignored me. But it is not so much these that tears a hole in my heart, rather the care and love you once seem to have is now on "on/off" mode whereby you only switch them on when we are alone. Other times you seem to have change and that again you do not realize. Things you have said tend to hurt me more, but I don't show any signs of discomfort, instead they are kept and locked away while I put a smile on my face and continue again, in being that extra. Sometimes it offends me that after all we've been through, even if it was a short period of time, it feels like the you I know isn't there anymore. Where's that person that I once used to know who always came to me when you had problems, big or small? Instead I don't hear anything anymore. Secrets you don't tell, happenings you don't say, like I am discarded rubbish that doesn't need care or to care anymore. Talking to you at times feels like talking to the wall. You don't hear what I say, maybe my words feels like humming to you. You don't see the hurt and sadness, you still continue to be that way until I had you for one day only, and then it was time for you to turn back to what you have become. Is it so important for you to do that that you don't even know that you are hurting me slowly but surely. I used to be your pillow, your comfort zone. And then it came, and you were gone, like the sun that snatches the few drops of rain, leaving a cloudy day. It feels like losing a friend, although you still are one. And all i ever care about in the end, is to make sure that you are okay and that you are not hurt by others. So what if I get lost along the way? But just so you know, I am and always will be here for you no matter what, and I will continue to love, just as long as you are you and I am me.