Is me, and always shall be

Maybe being alone is me, and always shall be. I tried so hard and maybe its time I quite trying. I don't give a fudge any longer who the fudge likes me or not, I'm just gonna be me and me alone. If you fudging people don't like me then I don't expect you too. Imma be who I am. Imma be the one that I wanna be. Imma be the one that you love if you know me, truly.
I don't care about the others, or what they think. If you think of me, then know this, I think of you too. And I'm very deep in you. If I were to say that every day you are on my mind and you fill my dreams every night, sometimes you may think that I only say this to sound so sweet, but in reality it happens to me. I'm not lying or pretending.
Sometimes I feel so tired of trying to be their friends. Maybe because no matter how hard I try I will always be alienated from them. But I just want you to know, that the only thing that matters to me, is that I will be able to be with you. And if that means being who I truly am, the Imma be me. And I don't give a fudge if they think I'm weird as long as I can be with you. But know that I never think of them so unkindly, for I find them fairly well to me. I just feel at times like such a despo for I want to be with them, to be with you.
But now I know that it doesn't matter anymore. If you like me then that's all that really matters. If things don't happen the way I may want it to be, then maybe its fate that brought us together, only to tear us apart.