When it strikes you.

When it strikes you, it strikes you unkind. Not caring if the pain affects in unexplainable ways. They just happen and there's nothing you can do. Yesterday and everything was fine, this morning too, was sublime. Then it changed but I know not what gives, or what may have caused such a decision to so abruptly unfold. If anything, it made me wonder, and a lot of thinking was done as well. No matter though, you'd never know what the heart shows because everything will be okay again and I wouldn't let you know. But somehow I wish you do. That you can understand what I'm going through. And maybe just for once be the one that you cared about, instead of me caring about you only, all the time. I worry about you, and feel troubled with what I have done, but know not of, while you scamper around with a smile on your face, leaving me feeling like you don't care, not anymore. You're not nothing to me, and I wish I can tell you that, you are someone, one that I care for and will continue to do. Though I know I will never get the chance, somehow I wish you would read between the lines and get the message through.
But I talk not to you alone. Here I speak to many unknown. And now for you, is it because you have found someone else now that you do not need me to be there anymore and that while I may be the help, to you I seem to be the nag and the bore and the pain in the ass? Sometimes the hurt of ignorance fills me up till words can't describe it. And feelings fail me as well for you see not what you have done and you will never know that was what you did. Yes, I do admit that at times I see the appreciation, but it feels like you do not care anymore and the things that you did was just nothing but an obligation you feel you need to do for me. No matter, I will never change to be the person I am, and if it means feeling unappreciated, then so be it. I am thankful for those who I know will always be there for me although they can't really be here now, and I also believe that someday somehow things will happen and it'd be that time that I know someone out there is going to truly appreciate this.